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I don't want to be loved anymore.
I don't want to expect anything from anyone.
I figure if you don't expect anything, you won't be let down by them.
You're heart won't wait, and sink.
And you will be happy when they actually do come through,
more than you would if it were expected.
I don't want to talk about how unhappy I feel sometimes
Or that I cry to myself
Because it will only drive them away
But I find myself in that room all the time
The waiting room where I wait for my name to be called
When the people who are my priority see me as a priority as well
But it doesn't happen a lot
Seemingly less and less.
It makes me want to just disappear all together.
I just want to disappear.